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your birthday is about to come… it’s been a while now since we haven’t communicated each other.. i don’t know if you miss me too or what, but i mean it, i miss you all those times. sometimes i wanted to violate the deal that we have, but i just can’t deny to my self: i still love you.. i know, you might be disappointed with those lines, and my apology for that.. i;m sorry if i didn’t give up.. i’m sorry if i sound too selfish.. and you might think that it’s us or nothing.. but i strongly opposed that opinion you have.. it’s not like that… it’s just that, *sighs* i don’t know..

i still don’t understand and still can’t believe this would happen to us.. i wonder if i could still see you.. but i hope we could still..

i don’t know what else should i say, right at this moment, i feel so much emptiness… bittersweet feelings..

i miss you…

***sighs****

it’s been a while since the last time i saw u..

it’s been a while since the last time i hug u..

it’s been a while since the last time i kissed u..

it’s been a while since i cried a lot after our final break up.. i know u knew it that i cried… i don’t know if you still find it over acting… but you knew what happened on that day… that was an unforgetable moment.. the very first time i cried because of a woman.. a woman that i loved and ever dream of.. every now and then, involuntarily my mind becomes uncouncious and like a lightning that flashes in front of my two eyes, memories that we shared brought back on my mind.. i can’t help it, i can’t even control it.. i can’t imagine our promises were too ephemeral.. where are all the feelings go? why it fades away? why you wanted me to stay, but not more than a friend? why things are quiet ironic now… simple yet complicated.. more complicated on my part.. a risk that i need to take.. “why” is the only word i could ever think of.. i am still puzzled with the things that are happening with us… between you and me…

it’s been a while..

it’s been 3 months now since 2 hearts become 1..

so far so good.. new things are learned from each other..

keep on surviving, no matter what.. ‘coz we both believe in us.

i’ll keep your promises and you keep my promises too..

may God be with us always..

More power to both!

^i love you so much

Well, valentines day is here…. uhmm… i just want to post this love quotes, which i found upon doing some random search…. Moreover, I first read the stuff below, at the door of my aunt’s room, we back 1998..

Hmm.. i just love reading each line of such article, quotes or whatever…. hehe

Oh yeah i forgot, i don’t even know the title.. mybad.

To the author: Thanks for sharing your thoughts! I love reading it!

Love takes time. It needs a history of giving and receiving, laughing and crying…Love never promises instant gratification, only ultimate fulfillment.

Love means believing in someone, in something. It supposes a willingness to struggle, to work, to suffer, and to rejoice.

It belongs to only those who can reach beyond themselves; to whom giving is more important than receiving.

Love is doing everything you can to help others build whatever dreams they have.

Love involves much careful and active listening. It is doing whatever needs to be done, and saving whatever will promote others’ happiness, security and well-being.

Sometimes love hurts.

Love is a constant journey to what others need. It must be attentive, caring and open, both to what others say and to what others cannot say.

Love says no with empathy and great compassion.

Love is firm, but when needed it must be tender.

When others have tried and failed, love is the hand in your moments of discouragement and disappointment.

Love is reliable.

Love is a choice and a commitment to others’ true and lasting happiness. It is dedicated to growth and fulfillment. Love is not selfish.

Love sometimes fails for lack of wisdom or abundance of weakness, but it forgives, knowing the intentions are good.

Love does not attach conditions… Genuine love is always a free gift.

Love realises and accepts that there will be disagreements and disturbing emotions.

There may be times when miles lay between, but love is a commitment. It believes, and endures all things.

Love encourages freedom of self. Love shares positive and negative reactions to warm and cold feelings.

Love, intimate love, will never reject others. It is the first to encourage and the last to condemn.

Love is a commitment to growth, happiness, and fulfillment of one another.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ALL!!!